Current mood:

cold

Why is everything happening so fast?
I was just reading back posts from here, from like 2007. I can't actually believe that much time has passed. Grandad's gone, me and Dom are still together, and I'm in the process of applying for university.
What happened to the carefree days of childhood? It's all going so fast, I'm going to be an adult soon and I'm just not ready.
I don't know why I'[m reminiscing. But today is the first day I realised, me and Dom are not going to be together forever. The magics worn off and to be perfectly honest...I'm bored. We're arguing the minute, I highly doubt we'll make it to university together, if so it'll be a fucking miracle. Not that I would ever actually have the balls to finish him. I mean I am actually trying, I'm trying to make it all special, it's not as if I still don't get all tingly when he looks at me sometimes..but he rarely looks at me like that anymore anyway...I feel like he's just got into a habitual routine of having me there, and its grinding on me to be frank. I have a friend...not a boyfriend. We only have sex like every other week..and I see him virtually every day...that's worse than like a married couple isn't it?
Well tonight, his usual stubborn self started an argument with me, and yknow..for the one time in my life I can 100% say it was unprovoked. And now he's out at a party, and couldn't give a shit about me. I think the feelings gone for him too.
Im begging for that excitement, of meeting someone new, but at the same time..I'm scared because Im so comfortable with Dom..I don't know how I'd react in a different situation. But I suppose if I'm going to grow up I'm going to have to stop clinging to my comfort zone.
Somethings got to change, and it's either me or him.